Hello, I am a sub male that was raped when i was younger but enjoyed it, I got more in to the more darker fetishes as i got older and then got with a female sadistic who used to rape me and also give me sleeping tablets, after i split with her i moved in with a DADDY but he passed away with cancer but he had a bbw friend he used to get to rape me and so did he, I got more in to being given sleeping tablets and was going to do a film with my DADDY but he passed before we had the chance, i Know its a touchy subject but when ever i have watched the films most did not look real, and so wanted to do one or more myself but then i lost most of my eye sight( i still see some but travel on own is hard now)and never been able to find anyone to do one with not even on fetlife, Im more in to being forced/made etc and this is how i got to wanting to do them,